Reading and books have been an escape for me for as long as I can remember. No matter what was going on in my life, I could always turn to the soft pages of a good book. I would get lost in other worlds as I became other people.
No matter where I would go, I would have a book in hand. Last summer I would leave for work early so I could go sit by the water with the newest vampire novel, and stay there til the last possible minute.
Lately for me, that isn’t the case. I thought I was alone until I read an article on depression and reading, over on Book Riot. Once I read it, I felt some relief.Someone out there was feeling the same way as I was.
Last year I talked about dealing with depression. Since then, I have seen my doc and I have been on medication for about five months now. I feel a lot better in a lot of ways, but not when it comes to reading.
It feels like that part of my brain, the part where my love of books and passion for the written word lives, is numb. Like somebody flicked a switch. Now I am trying to flick the switch back. But the fecking thing is stuck.
Not having the…mindset to read is a first for me. I don’t like it. It has also impacted my writing. I am happy knowing that I’m not the only one with this problem, but it is an awful one to have. I need to figure out how to get my reading groove back. Do I wait and hope that the meds will help, like the doctor said? Or is there something else I can do?
If you have dealt with reading and depression (or even writing and depression), comment below.
Wow, it is amazing how time can go by so fast. It doesn’t seem like it has been that long since I last wrote, but it has been. I think it is time to blow the dust off of this thing and get back to normal…or whatever normal is.
I didn’t mean to not be around for like, 2 months. But it happened.
This year has been going pretty good so far. I have been pretty busy. Between working on my new little business, (I became a Jamberry consultant), dealing with the winter blues and my wedding, I haven’t been as creative as I want to be.
And I admit, I have massive “wedding brain”. It is constantly on my mind. And I mean CONSTANTLY. I am either thinking of what I have to do, who I have left to pay (how I am going to pay them!), etc, etc… I didn’t think the wedding would be so deep in my brain, but given that each day brings it closer and that I am a worry wart, it makes total sense. I am looking forward to the days after my wedding, where I can focus on a book or a craft and not think “I should put this down. I have one hundred envelopes to address.”
Oh, and then there is my newest addiction: Clash of Clans. I am in a tiny clan with these two great geeks from Scotland. It has been my one true distraction from life in general. I get very involved, which Mr. C shakes his head at. He has no idea what he’s missing.
So on that note, I will end here. I hope you are having a great weekend, and I will be back soon!
It is really easy to put things off. I am the Queen of Procrastination. It isn’t that I don’t want to do certain things, but the phrases “I am going to start this soon” or “I will get on that tomorrow”, become easier to say. And tomorrow turns into the next day and so on.
I have been doing a lot of thinking lately about my writing. I am kicking myself for wasted days and being lazy. I’m not as prolific as I used to be. I’m not happy with that, so it is time for a REAL change.
I’m not the type of person to write every day. Some writers are. Even during NaNoWriMo there are days I don’t write. Either because life is simply too hectic that day, or I need to give my brain a little bit of recharge time. (Although I only do that if I am at least a day or two ahead of schedule.)
While I am not a person to write every day, all week, all year, I know I can write some of the week. So I am making myself a schedule of sorts.
I am vowing to write four days a week. If more, bonus! But unless life takes some major curve ball, I know I can write (or edit) even a page or two that much during the week. I have no real excuse right now not to do that.
I have last year’s Nano to work on, plus a new project I have been dying to get at. So I have a great starting point for my work.
Instead of just thinking about writing, I need to get off my ass and start DOING.
Have you made any new changes or goals for your writing? If so, what have you decided to do?
Yesterday morning I arrived at work, got myself settled in and took out my phone to check Facebook while I ate my breakfast. Pretty quickly an article caught my eye. My best friend had posted something that made my jaw drop. When I seen the line ‘Alan Rickman passes at age 69’, I didn’t believe it. I had to check the link to prove that this was just another horrible celebrity death hoax.
But it wasn’t. I stared at the cold hard truth and my heart broke.
It is amazing how someone you have never met can have such an impact on you. Can make you feel so strongly. But I can say that while I never met the man (if only!), I have been totally heart broken about his passing.
I have been a huge fan of Alan Rickman since before his famous role as Severus Snape in the Harry Potter universe. From Die Hard to Sense and Sensibility, this man stole my heart. He captivated me, and many others, in his role on Robin Hood: Prince of Thieves as the evil (and a little crazy) Sheriff of Nottingham. No matter the role he played, which was many and varied, he made us believe he really was that character.
My Facebook yesterday was full of statuses in regards to others being just as saddened and people saying what movies of his they would be watching that night or this weekend. I will be having my own Alan Rickman marathon come the weekend. There’s so many great ones, it is hard to choose.
What movies of his do you love the most? What would you watch?
Happy New Year everyone!!! I hope that you all had a great night and aren’t suffering too badly from hangovers- both from the liquid and food variety.😉
One of the things that ended my year was a surprise in my mailbox!
My newest to the collection.
I am a huge fan of ‘Once Upon A Time.’ And I love Ginnifer Goodwin. I thought she was awesome on ‘Big Love’ and I adore her as Snow White.
Recently another auto came my way.
Another OUAT cast member, but this time the pic is from another role.
Rose McIver as Liv Moore.
If you haven’t checked out ‘iZombie’ yet, I highly suggest to give it a go! I love the characters, the story, and the fact Liv Moore is a zombie helping to solve crime. Thanks to one of her zombie side effects.
I haven’t been able to write letters in the last couple of months. During November, my words and energy was put into my novel. And with the holidays, not much extra was getting done. But now that all of that is behind me, it is time to get the pen and paper out and start writing some letters. To pen pals and celebs.
I hope you all are getting to relax today, and enjoy the first day of 2016!!!
I wasn’t able to be around much this month. With work and the holidays, I didn’t have any time nor energy to sit at the computer very much.
But here I am. Another year just about over, and new beginnings just around the corner.
I want to first of all thank all my awesome and lovely followers. To all of you who have stuck it out with me, who stay around for my rambles, thank you. You all rock! I have loved getting to know some of you and I hope that continues for 2016.
This past year has been a crazy one. There were some hectic and stressful moments but there were a lot of great moments. I didn’t get to read as much as I wanted but I did read some great works. I finished writing a novel, accomplished a lot for the wedding (Countdown to the geeky wedding…8 and a half months!), and I have learned who my friends are and aren’t.
I am not going to make promises to myself for the new year. But I am going to make plans. Like finish planning the geekiest wedding a person could see.😉 Writing another novel, tackling the many unread books on my shelf, and making memories with the people I love.
I wish you all the best. I hope that 2016 is full of wonderful things. That you get what you want from it and from life. And that you stick around for another year of my rambles.