Something my writing friends and I sometimes talk about. And more recently, something I have felt for the first time.
As I posted not long ago, I recently self published my e-book Blood Bonds: Stories from the Lily and Quinn Collection. I was pretty excited about it. I took short stories I had previously published in other anthologies plus a new story I wrote this year and put it into my book. Two of my friends really encouraged me to do so and helped me with the process. I couldn’t have done it without them.
I was feeling pretty good about it all. (Still am, I should add). But last week I felt something as a writer I had never felt before: feeling like an impostor. Like I was a fake in a world with real writers. Trying to pass myself as something I wasn’t.
A girl I had known since elementary works for the local newspaper. She’s on my Facebook and noticed my posts about my book She reached out to me, asking if I wanted to do an interview about it. After my initial shock and calling one of my friends, I replied to her and said yes, I would love to.
But as I waited for her to call me for the interview, seeds of doubt started to kick in.
Why was she interviewing me? I’m not worthy of this. She should be talking to Sherry. She’s a real writer after all. It’s just a little ebook, nothing crazy like an epic novel about to be turned into a movie. Seriously though why me? I’m not worthy of this attention, am I?
It isn’t a good feeling when you’re happy about something and negative thoughts crowd your head. But, I worked through it. I had the phone interview and felt really good afterwards. And those negative thoughts were gone. I am a real writer, she wanted to do a piece on my book because she thought it was interesting and I deserved it. I wrote the stories, nobody else. And bonus: my book will get some free advertising. 😉
She came the next day for my photo, and I think in the next day or two my interview will be in the paper. I will be sure to cut it out and save it, something else to add to my writer scrapbook.
When have you felt like an impostor? How have you handled it?
If you’re interested in grabbing your copy and diving into the world of Lily and Quinn, you can get your copy of Blood Bonds over here.