Reading And Depression Don’t Always Mix

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Reading and books have been an escape for me for as long as I can remember. No matter what was going on in my life, I could always turn to the soft pages of a good book. I would get lost in other worlds as I became other people.

No matter where I would go, I would have a book in hand. Last summer I would leave for work early so I could go sit by the water with the newest vampire novel, and stay there til the last possible minute.

Lately for me, that isn’t the case. I thought I was  alone until I read an article on depression and reading, over on Book Riot. Once I read it, I felt some relief.Someone out there was feeling the same way as I was.

Last year I talked about dealing with depression. Since then, I have seen my doc and I have been on medication for about five months now. I feel a lot better in a lot of ways, but not when it comes to reading.

It feels like that part of my brain, the part where my love of books and passion for the written word lives, is numb. Like somebody flicked a switch. Now I am trying to flick the switch back. But the fecking thing is stuck.

Not having the…mindset to read is a first for me. I don’t like it. It has also impacted my writing. I am happy knowing that I’m not the only one with this problem, but it is an awful one to have. I need to figure out how to get my reading groove back. Do I wait and hope that the meds will help, like the doctor said? Or is there something else I can do?

If you have dealt with reading and depression (or even writing and depression), comment below.

 

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My Love Of Books And A Question To My Fellow Bookworms

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I’ve loved books all my life. Before my father passed away he told me how when I was about nine months old, if I was passed a book and it was backwards or upside down I would flip it right side up or turn it around.

I remember being three years old, mom or dad taking me to bed and being read to. And then asking for a second and third story.

When I was five I would sit for my oldest brother and tell him crazy stories about dragons and a princess and unicorns.

I remember the first word I ever read. I was in first grade and I ran off the bus yelling “Mom, I can read!!” I remember feeling so proud at being able to read the word “the”.

When I learned how to write I started putting my own words to paper and dreamed of being in a book. Seeing my very own story in print. In third grade my story (of a total of ten lines, I think) was picked to be published in a book called “Forever Friends”, which has stories from students in each grade, in schools across the province. And in high school another story, this one longer, was published.

I remember spending summers reading a box of books.

When my first short story was published in an anthology from Third Person Press, I was so proud of myself. Even though my dad can’t see what I have accomplished the last few years, he got to see me live my dream: my story in a book, and I got paid for it.

My point is, books and reading have been a part of my life for longer then I can remember. There is nothing I love more then diving into a new book. And so here is (finally, I know) my question:

What is your favorite quote about reading or books in general?

I am starting to focus on  my next tattoo. My first ink has meaning for me, and I plan to do that with each piece I get.

And it makes perfect sense to make my next one about my love of reading and the written word. There’s so many images and quotes to pick from. I think it will be an elaborate piece. So now the brainstorming has begun.

What is your favorite quote? If you were to get a tattoo reflecting your love of books (or even a certain book), what would it be? 🙂

My Book Journal

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I had hoped to write another book review today, but since the week was busier then I had expected, I never had the chance to finish reading my current book. (Which happens to be ‘The Murder Prophet’, by Sherry D. Ramsey. I am loving it so far. She’s one of my fave authors, and who can go wrong with a book that has a talking goose addicted to video games?! But more on that another day.)

Earlier in the year while cruising around the interwebs, I found several posts and pictures on homemade reading journals. So I thought I would create my own as well. I have a Smashbook started, which I will write about another day. The journal is a bit more simple.

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I’m such a geek that I needed to have a title page.

I started off the first two pages with a copy of my reading challenge for the year, as well as my first book of the year.

IMG-20150222-00731The info on each page is pretty basic. I have the title of the book and its author, my star rating, a mini review, a quote or two, the date I finished reading it,  and I even print off mini pic of the book cover.

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I think adding stars is cute. I plan on buying a pack of stickers, to make it easier.

I hate my writing, so sometimes I will print off the title, like I did with ‘Lover Unleashed.’

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By using the back and front of each page, this journal will probably last me a couple of years.

It’s a simple and basic book but I love this idea and I like keeping track of my books this way. I might start another one for books I have read in the past.

Do you have a reading journal? What info do you put in it?

Book Review: Lover Unleashed by J.R Ward

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I’m not used to doing book reviews. This is something really new to me. So I ask that you be patient with me. I’m sure in time I will get better. (I hope.)

Today I sat down and finished ‘Lover Unleashed’, book nine in the Black dagger Brotherhood series by J.R. Ward.

I should back track just a tad. If you haven’t read any of these books, let me give you a brief idea of them.

The series is a vampire romance, and the Brotherhood is a group of big, badass warriors. The books are full of dark fantasy, romance, drama, ass kickin’ and some fun twists added in. The Brotherhood protects the ‘civilian’ vampires from their enemy, known as the Lessers. (I do think they could have been named something better, but whatever. The term has grown on me.)

If you decide to read these books, I highly suggest starting from book one, Dark Lover.

Summary from the book jacket:

In the darkest corners of the night in Caldwell, New York, a conflict like no other rages. The city is home to a band of brothers born to defend their race: The warrior vampires of the Black Dagger Brotherhood.

Payne, twin sister of Vishous, is cut from the same dark, seductive cloth as her brother. Imprisoned for eons by their mother, the Scribe Virgin, she finally frees herself – only to face a devastating injury.

Manuel Manello, MD, is drafted by the Brotherhood to save her as only he can – but when the human surgeon and the vampire warrior meet, their two worlds collide in the face of their undeniable passion. With so much working against them, can love prove stronger than the birth right and the biology that separate them?

My thoughts:

I’ll be honest, I wasn’t exactly looking forward to sitting down and reading this one. I had devoured books one through eight, yet paused on the series for several months because book nine felt daunting. (Also, after power reading the first eight, I needed to read something else for a bit before I got back on the vampire wagon, so to speak.)

The reason is this: I wasn’t looking forward to Manny. When he appeared in another book, I figured he was there just for a small purpose, never to be seen again, and I didn’t pay much attention to him. I just didn’t like him.

But now that I read the book, I am so glad I did. While this is not the best (in my opinion) in the series, it is far from the worst.

Payne and Manny are a better couple then I originally thought, but they didn’t have the ‘pop!’ that the other couples had in the previous books.

I found there were too many point of views. In the start of the series, it is just a couple POV: the vampire, his mate, and the enemy. But at the series continued, more POV were added. (Which usually I don’t mind at all. I was used to the format of the first few books, so adding in more characters through me off. It makes sense though, as there are a lot of them. Plus more side stories help keep the series going.)

I did enjoy seeing more of Vishous and his shellen Jane. He has a big fan base, and his fans will agree he is better then ’50 Shades’. ( I have no thoughts on this, I have yet to read those books.) It was great to see his POV again, more of his back story, and how he deals with his Jane. (Who is a ghost, BTW.)

The book also introduced new vampires, a group called The Band of Bastards, who came from Europe. This book laid some foundation for what’s to come. I am looking forward to the trouble they will cause, and how King Wrath and his warriors will deal with them.

I was rooting for Payne and Manny the entire time. Payne suffers an injury, and Manny being an amazing surgeon, is brought in to help her and heal her. He is a human, but yet begins to face some odd experiences, things that only male vampires have. When he first sees her, one word comes to mind: MINE.

I love how he adores her, and aches for her. I love that Manny will do anything for her and it broke my heart when I didn’t see a way for them to be together. Neither thought that a future together was possible. Their love is slower paced but yet romantic. I admit I loved Manny quickly. And I think other readers did (and will) as well.

One side story with Quinn and Blay, well, it seemed kinda pointless. We didn’t see their POV very often, and the little I learned (that Quinn is suffering from not telling Blay he loves him), could have been shown in another way. There wasn’t much development on their story and I feel that their POV could have been left out.

I think I will leave it here, because if not, I know I will let out every single spoiler and basically end up summarizing the entire book. When it comes to this series, I can talk on and on and on about it.

Have you read this book? Or any of the BDB series? If so, tell me your thoughts!

Snow Day with a Kitty!

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I woke up this morning to find our driveway with knee to waist deep snow. And no plow had yet to come on our road. So yuck!

Now that Mr. C and I have dug the driveway out, freeing it from the white stuff from hell, I am now warming myself up in cozy pj’s and a blanket.

And no snow day would be complete without a book. And a lil bit of company!

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Meet my kitty! This is Missy. 🙂

Missy tends to stay near me, especially when I am sick or when I am laying down. I wasn’t curled up on my sofa long when she came running!

I am almost half way through reading ‘Lover Unleashed’ (book 9 in the Blackdagger Brotherhood series) but J.R. Ward. It isn’t my favorite in the series, but it isn’t as bad as I thought it was going to be. (Just wasn’t looking forward to one character in particular.) I am also anxious to get to the next book, the one I have been dying to read for awhile. And like hell I am going to skip over any! I just can’t bring myself to do that.

What book are you currently reading?

New Year, New Resolutions

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It is that time of year when people are getting ready to make new plans and goals for themselves. Loose weight. Save money. Go to the gym. Blah, blah, blah.

Last year I didn’t make any, since I seem to fail at any and all I make. One year I gave up pop. What was I doing three weeks later? Sipping on a Pepsi and thinking “Oh shit, didn’t I give this up?”

This year I decided to make some that I consider fun. It is more to help me get some things accomplished, rather then improve myself/my life. (I try to do that anyway during the year.)

So here is a list of my 2015 Resolutions!

1- Read. I’m setting myself a goal on Goodreads to read 30 books this year. I do hope to read more then that, but that’s a realistic number for me. Between life getting in the way, and migraines, I can’t read a book or more a week ALL year. I posted a book challenge not too long ago, and I plan to use it as a guide and see how many I can scratch off.

2- Write. I’m going to finish my NaNo novel I wrote this year and polish it off. With any luck, I’ll submit it somewhere as well. I also want to keep going here, and start a new project or two at the very least.

3- Snail mail! I’m hoping in February or March to have a snail mail challenge, in which I will write a piece of mail every day. It might be a card or full blown letter. I’ll be posting about it here before hand. Maybe someone will want to join me, or even get a piece of mail themselves 🙂 (You know it is way better then getting a bill!)

4- Create My Bucket List. I recently found a journal I had when I was fifteen. I wrote about forty things I wanted to do by the time I was thirty. I actually managed to do some. However my efforts to end world hunger have yet to work. I decided I’m going to write up a new list, and make plans to start scratching it off. Some things will be easier to accomplish, and others will be in the “far fetched” category. Hey, it never hurts to dream! (And at fifteen I didn’t think I’d get to actually “Meet ten celebrities.” Thanks to conventions, I have doubled my original goal 😉 )

5- Get Creative. This year, for whatever reason, I lost touch with my creative side. I love photography, Smashbooking, and other little art projects. Not only is it fun, but it is also a form of therapy. And it also helps boost my writing. Sometimes when I’m zoning out and working on a project, I have a new story idea or a problem I’ve been having solves itself. So instead of buying craft supplies and letting them collect dust, I’m going to put them to good use.

It’s a small list but that’s ok! I might end up adding more. Are you making any resolutions this year? If so, what are they? I would love to hear about them! (And I’m betting my own list will grow! 😉 ) I wish you all a very happy new year and I hope 2015 treats you amazingly well!!! xo

Reading Challenge 2015

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Even though the new year is still a few weeks away, I have been thinking of the things I want to accomplish. I’m not talking the usual “drop some weight”, “go to the gym”, “organize the house” resolutions that people make every year. Nope, mine are all geek related. And I will talk about them on New Year’s day.

One of the things I wanted to do next year, is set myself a reading goal. I’m aiming for 30 but I’m hoping to get more then that read.

And to help me with it, I just found this fun reading challenge!!! I plan on printing it off and hanging it in my office, and with any luck I will get to check off many of these.

Are you up for a reading challenge? What is on this list that you want to tackle? I think my faves are ‘A book your mom loves’ and ‘A book by an author you have never read before.’ Many of these look interesting, which is making me more anxious for the new year to start! 🙂

 

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