Hopes and Plans for 2018

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I’m spending my New Years Eve home, in my pj’s with snacks. A perfect night in. After a hectic few weeks with work and the holidays, I am more then happy to stay at home tonight. I am about to have a marathon of The Strain. Love me some vampires!

I have been thinking all day of the things I want to do. I want to make 2018 a great year. I want to continue my personal growth, create some habits and have as much fun and laughs as possible.

I believe that telling people your plans makes you accountable, so I thought I would make my last blog post of the year about my plans (so far) for the new one. Hopefully this time next year my post won’t be about how all my plans went to crap haha. So, here are a few things I would like to do in 2018!

#1: Do at least two 100 day challenges.ย  I have been watching a lot of videos the last few days on Facebook about different challenges people have done, and I love the idea. Some people go to the gym, while others conquer their fears. Mine are not that fun haha, so no videos about them. I will start my first one in the next day or two, which will be no Pepsi or Coke. With the holidays I have been drinking a lot of it and I feel gross. My second one which I will start the end of March will be to write a page a day for 100 days. I have other writing goals, as well, but this will help me if I start to slack.

#2: Go to Toronto Comic Con.ย I found out the other day that Mr. C is flying me out to see him in March for a few days (hence not starting my writing challenge til spring…I won’t be writing a word those days), and while I am with him we are going to go to Comic Con! I can’t wait! I haven’t been to that con and I hope to see my friend Laura there as well. (Who I first met at Fan Expo ๐Ÿ™‚ ) I hope to get to three comic cons this year. They are my favorite places to be. โค

#3: Commit more time to writing.ย I am going to work on my writing three evenings a week. Some nights it might be editing, while others it might be working on new projects. I figure three nights isn’t too much pressure, and if I write more then that, bonus! Plus, I really want to blog at least once a week.

#4: Read.ย I have so many books on my TBR pile. I didn’t do much reading this year, and I hate that. I bought a lot so that has to count for something, right? ๐Ÿ˜‰ I will review each one on here, even if it is just a few words.

#5: Savor every day.ย I am cracking out one of my journals and each day I will write one good thing about that day. I said in my last post that I want to have a lot more positivity in my life, and I want to keep track of that. It might be feeling good, a chat with a good friend or the feeling of spring sunshine on my face. Life is too short to let the days whiz by and not focus on the little things.

Well, that is my list. What do you hope to do this new year? Whatever you are doing tonight be safe and have fun!

Now if you will excuse me, vampires are calling my name. ๐Ÿ˜‰

 

 

 

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Positive Vibes For The New Year

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I have been thinking a lot the last few weeks about the events in my life in 2017.

I have had some hard moments. My summer was filled with a lot of tears and sadness and by the fall I was mentally and emotionally exhausted.

The last couple of months I have been ‘forced’ to think more on the positive side. My husband is away for a total of six months for work. The only way I have been getting through it is thinking of the good things to come from it, and in turn it is changing my way of thinking.

When you are in a rut, sick, or in mourning, it is easy to get stuck in a negative vibe. At least that is the case for me. When it rains, it usually pours.

I don’t really plan to make resolutions for 2018, but I want to carry on the good things I have taken from this year.

Taking part in Nanowrimo this year kicked started something for me. I had been in a writing slum for awhile. But now I am excited to get back to older, unfinished works, as well as having a bunch of new ideas for future stories. Yay! ๐Ÿ™‚

Also, I want 2018 to be a much more positive year. I am going to savor the little things, and even on the bad days come up with something good. I might start a gratitude jar or write something in a journal each day.

2017 has kicked a lot of peoples butts this year, including mine. 2018 is going to be the year that I kick back.

I hope you all have a fantastic New Year’s and that 2018 brings you everything you want. โค

Ok so I fibbed…but just a little

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I said before that I wasn’t rushing the summer away. But I guess that isn’t really true. As much as I love (and need) sunshine and long days, I am really REALLY eager for fall to come.

I try not to rush the summer, because I dread winter. In my part of the world, sometimes winter feels never ending. In Cape Breton, sometimes winter starts in November and we are lucky if the snow is gone in April. (I remember a snow storm once on May 18th… *shudder*) And, I don’t do well in the winter. My depression is at it’s worst, especially by February and March. We were lucky a few years in a row to have mild winters that nobody minded. But we paid for that since. (Snowmageddon and the Snopocalypse).

I love autumn, especially October. I mean, what isn’t to love?! Thanksgiving, Halloween, apple cider, corn mazes, and the splendid colors that fall brings, just to name a few.

I am already mentally making a fall to do list. It is hard not to, especially since my Pinterest feed is filled with everything autumn and spooky.

When it comes to my writing, I am mostly putting fiction to the side. I want to work on this blog (don’t hold your breath, but let’s see what happens ๐Ÿ˜‰ ), and journal. Not just randomness but write down memories of my dad, life events, etc… Try to catch up on those sorts of things.

I won’t stay away from fiction totally. I plan to use my favorite time to write a short story. Maybe give horror another shot or just a fun or spooky story set on Halloween.

So, hate me if you must but fall is calling my name. I want the crisp evenings, comfy sweaters and to hear the crunching of leaves beneath my feet.

What season soothes your soul?

 

Midsummer Update

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I had one hell of a spring and my summer isn’t much improved. I have had a lot of family and personal stress, and on top of that my precious furbaby went to the rainbow bridge in June. Hershey was a huge part of mine and Mr. C’s life. Her passing has been very hard on us both.

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You have no idea how much I miss this face.

I have been dealing with depression. I am trying to get to my writing and reading but I lack the focus. However it is hard to focus with bright sunny days calling to you. Work has been crazy, and I am looking forward to autumn.

We are going away to Hal-con, a comic con in Halifax, Nova Scotia. I am super excited to go. I have been before but it has been a few years. I love the fall and I am excited to nerd out, so here is hoping that I am feeling better come my favorite time of year. I am not rushing the summer, though. I am not eager to give up the sunshine and heat.

I hope your summer is great. ๐Ÿ™‚

My Big Fat Geek Wedding

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I am a bit late with my post this week. My personal goal is to post at least once a week, but when you have a migraine for a few days, your entire week goes to hell.ย I had been hoping to write another “From The Book Pile” but again, my migraine prevented me from reading. Hopefully I finish my next book by weeks end.

So, I thought this would be the perfect time ย to finally write about the best day of 2016-my wedding day. ๐Ÿ™‚

When Mr. C and I were planning, we wanted to make the day reflect us and what we love. After all, this is the one time we are doing this. So, after some talking, I came up with “Geek Chic”. And that is exactly what we had. A beautiful wedding with just the right amount of geekery added in. So if you are planning a geeky wedding, or having a unique theme, these may give you some ideas for your own big day. ๐Ÿ™‚

First I need to say that thanks to our amazing photographers, Nicole and Mike White -a husband and wife team from White Photography- we have every moment from our amazing day captured. I could never thank them enough for taking these photos, and making our day run smooth. I will cherish these for a lifetime.

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My amazing comic book shoes. Made my myself and my kick ass Matron of Honor.

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My Lord of The rings necklace, D20 earrings (I also had zombie earrings.)

Along with the nerdy accessories, I also had traditional. I wore my nan’s pearl necklace as a wrap around bracelet.

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I loved my handbag I bought on Etsy.

Another non nerdy item…but my favorite.

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Not geeky, but very special. A heart cut from my late dad’s shirt. So his heart was next to mine on my special day.

While I wore a variety of items, Mr. C went with one theme. His awesome accessories were all Star wars.

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Cuff links. Darth Vader for hubby, Boba Fett for the Best Man and Storm troopers for the groomsmen.

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Shoes from the Dark Side ๐Ÿ˜‰

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And yes, even their boutineer’s were Star wars. They matched their cuff links. My MoH added the Star Wars bit and my florist Trinity did the rest.

After each of us got ready (me at a B&B, him at a friends house), we did photos with our side of the wedding party before him and I met up for our first look. It was one of my favorite parts of the day. I highly recommend it. It was just the two of us and our photographers. It was intimate and romantic.

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Just the two of us โค

Our bridal party photo session was a blast. Nicole knew from the start that Mr. C and I are total nerds. She had done some ‘killer’ engagement photos for us months prior. So when she suggested to do a zombie themed photo, we were all for it. And our bridal party got in on the fun!

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Zombies won’t stop us from our “I do’s!”

We got married in a local fire hall. It was an evening wedding followed by the receiving line, wine and cheese, and the reception.

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All the glasses had a nerdy image. The guys all had Star Wars. ALl done by Nabella Custom Design.

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Our names made from old comic books. My Matron of honor (and her family) were huge help. She made and helped with a lot for my big day.

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Geeky quotes, perfect for a wedding day. A steampunk decorated birdcage was our card holder.

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Instead of a guest book, I had stacks of books drawn up (MoH and her hubby). People signed their names on the spine. My niece surprised me with these amazing programs. It is one of my fave wedding gifts.

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My littlest bridesmaid gave me this wish jar the night before the wedding. And yes, we even had a wedding hashtag. Not many people used it but it was a great way to find photos after the big day.

I walked down the aisle to ‘A Thousand Years’ by Christina Perri. Not only do I love the song but it fit in with the movie buff side of us. (Don’t judge me for kinda liking Twilight ๐Ÿ˜‰

We did traditional vows, but we also did our version of a hand fasting/ hand fastening. With each braided ribbon that was tied around our hands, our JP had us say a line of nerdy vows. Which included, “To infinity and beyond”, “Live long and prosper”, “May the force be with you”, and “May the odds be ever in your favor”. Our guests just loved our fun and unique vows! Nobody was expecting that.

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Once we were wed we walked out to Darth Vader’s Imperial March!

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Pure happiness right here.

Later on, once the receiving line was finished, we walked back in to the theme song from Game of Thrones. I remember thinking “This is just how I pictured it! Just what I wanted”.

The guests had some time to check out our frickin awesome cake, made by one of my closest friends. Tanya worried I wouldn’t like it. She was right. I LOVED it!

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Thor’s hammer for a topper. She made comic book flowers to add a bridal look and put our fave symbols on the cake. This was even better (and yummier!) then I pictured. I bought a plain cake cutter and knife at Micheal’s and added comic book ‘Bam!’ and ‘Pow’ stickers to it.

Instead of having wedding favors, we did a candy buffet, so our guests could help themselves to our yummy treats. Needless to say, the entire table was a hit!

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Once we got in and settled, I had a very special Master of Ceremony join us. It isn’t every day a Jedi Master takes part in a wedding!

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Our friend did a fantastic job of this.

Instead of the traditional clinking of the glasses to get us to kiss, we had our speakers roll a D20. This is a pillow my MoH made. This is now on the sofa in my game room. I made sure nobody got it dirty! ๐Ÿ˜‰

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The rest of the night was filled with a lot of dancing and fun had by all. And just about everyone got in on the photo booth action! I had encouraged guests to cosplay or wear nerdy attire. My friends didn’t disappoint. ๐Ÿ˜‰

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Me and a friend making use of those props!

No matter what you plan to do on your big day, don’t let anyone stop you from doing what YOU want to do. While most of my family had no idea what to expect, they loved and enjoyed what we did. And supported it because it was what I wanted. Let your freak flag fly, my friends. Do what makes you happy.

New Year And A Fresh Start

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2016 was a crazy year for me. It was a good crazy, but it took the good out of me. After my wedding I pretty much just crashed. My Big Fat Geek Wedding was nothing short of amazing.

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Our day was great, even when our bridal party turned into zombies. ๐Ÿ˜‰ย 

 

My big day was just what I wanted, and something I want to share with my fellow nerds in the near future.

Then the holidays came and we all know how hectic they can be. Between work and Christmas prep, I didn’t have much time for myself.

But 2017 is here, and I am happy to be starting fresh. And getting back to my old self, slowly but surely.

I don’t usually make new years resolutions. But I do have things I want to do this year, like tackle my many unread books, write a story that has been stuck in my head for ages, and de-clutter my house.

Whatever plans and hopes you have for 2017, I hope the year is good to you!

 

 

Reading And Depression Don’t Always Mix

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Reading and books have been an escape for me for as long as I can remember. No matter what was going on in my life, I could always turn to the soft pages of a good book. I would get lost in other worlds as I became other people.

No matter where I would go, I would have a book in hand. Last summer I would leave for work early so I could go sit by the water with the newest vampire novel, and stay there til the last possible minute.

Lately for me, that isn’t the case. I thought I was ย alone until I read anย article on depression and reading, over on Book Riot. Once I read it, I felt some relief.Someone out there was feeling the same way as I was.

Last year I talked aboutย dealing with depression. Since then, I have seen my doc and I have been on medication for about five months now. I feel a lot better in a lot of ways, but not when it comes to reading.

It feels like that part of my brain, the part where my love of books and passion for the written word lives, is numb. Like somebody flicked a switch. Now I am trying to flick the switch back. But the fecking thing is stuck.

Not having the…mindset to read is a first for me. I don’t like it. It has also impacted my writing. I am happy knowing that I’m not the only one with this problem, but it is an awful one to have. I need to figure out how to get my reading groove back. Do I wait and hope that the meds will help, like the doctor said? Or is there something else I can do?

If you have dealt with reading and depression (or even writing and depression), comment below.